I joined a new support group a few weeks ago; it’s so comforting to know that other women understand.
I always find it a little bittersweet to know that someone can truly empathize with my struggles. I wouldn’t wish this pain, this emptiness, this state of destitution, these hardships on anybody; yet there are so many women who can relate to my position, who have previously or are currently fighting a very similar battle, who keep wishing for their abusers to drop out of the game.
Tonight, without having anticipated it, I was given a gift. It was the most generous thing to receive a tub filled with items for my baby girl. I almost couldn’t accept it; I didn’t want to take it from some other mother who might need it more, but my counselors gently insisted. I also felt a bit reluctant because there were disposable diapers in the bundle and I use cloth, but I figured it might come in handy to have disposables at some point. My last twinge of guilt was over the fact that baby may not need anything; she has two older sisters and I kept almost all of their clothing. It will be nice though, to allow baby just a few new things to call her own.
Upon arriving home from group my daughters helped me to open the package; it was like having a small baby shower, just us three. I couldn’t believe the amount of clothing and supplies and utterly adorable things inside!
- 1 adorable blanket with a bunny on it
- 4 bibs
- A 50 pack of newborn diapers (8-14lbs)
- 1 pair of crocheted mittens
- 6 sleepers
- 4 complete outfits
- 2 dresses
- 1 blue jean jacket
- 2 pairs of pants
- 5 onesies
- 1 packet of wipes
- 3 hats
- 1 set of Johnson & Johnson baby supplies (baby powder, shampoo, lotion, baby wash, diaper cream)
- 5 pairs of socks
- 1 embroidered burp cloth
- A Peter Rabbit themed Baby Book (something I’m committed to filling out for Baby#3)
I will most definitely express my appreciation to my counselors, but I am also hoping that someday I will be in the position to make another woman’s baby prep a little easier. I would love to give back in that way, to prepare a stranger’s baby shower basket, and to enhance her life from the shadows of anonymity. There are so many women out there in need.
I am so very grateful for this unexpected generosity.