I am incredibly overwhelmed.
I put off my coursework to care for my kids.
I do my housework since I’m not doing coursework.
I put off my housework to do my coursework.
While doing my coursework my kids wreck the house.
The baby will not let me put her down.
I am constantly nursing, changing diapers, leaking milk, burping, soothing, being spit up on, peed on, pooped on.
I am constantly serving meals, washing dishes, pre-washing cloth diapers, grooming my children, educating my children, feeling guilty that I cannot find the time for educating myself, running errands, running myself into the ground.
I want to cry like my baby. Her cry is so committed, wholeheartedly unabashed.
I want someone to hold me, to rock me, to love me, to shhhhhhhh in my ear while I cry.
I want so badly for things to be alright.
I can’t even imagine. I wish I could help out. Just know that this too will pass and it will get better!
Thank you
I wish I could help out a bit too. Isn’t there anyone you can call to help out every once in a while?
Not really. We moved here so that I can go to school and I really haven’t met many people (other than my classmates, and they are all at a much different life stage then I am). I have no family here, and although I have 1 good girlfriend she also has a child and a busy life. My neighbor is helpful, but she is also really busy, and when she helps me it is for a fee. I know that I am NOT alone emotionally. I am grateful to at least have people with me in that area.
Please know that you are an inspiration to us and I’m glad that you’re not alone emotionally. I just feel so frustrated for you! I understand what you feel and if I weren’t halfway around the world I’d help out!
You’re so sweet. Thank you! This is a frustrating situation, but I do believe we’ll come out alright
I remember those days when it felt like there was never a moment for me; when it felt like I had to put so much energy out for others with no one taking care of me. It was incredibly hard. AND I had a partner to share the load. I have wondered many times how anyone could manage it all on their own….BUT it does get easier as the kids get older. Hang in there…. Kim
Thank you! I will attempt to enjoy their childhood days while simultaneously looking forward to the years when they’ll be better able to participate in carrying the load of our family. I so badly want to cherish every moment, but I’m also anxious for the day they learn to sweep! Lol. Sigh. I suppose I could do my best to look on the bright side of things. Everyone is healthy, we are currently not homeless, and there’s still hope for the future being bright
I think both things are true; it is incredibly hard; particuarly the sleep deprivation…and you want to enjoy it as much as you can. I look back and wished I had savoured it more but at the time, I was so exhausted, it was hard to do. You are not alone in your feelings!!
Thank you! Good to know I’m not the only one who feels too tired to enjoy it at times, lol. I wonder if that’s why everyone with older children tells you to cherish it so much; they all probably remember how impossible it was while they were going through it too!
You are absolutely right….my kids are 19, 22 and 33 now…BUT I remember those days so well…they were exhausting but they fly by. Kim
Just hugs and I understand! Can’t help but can pray and am doing so. It is really hard!
I appreciate your prayers <3